Let’s start. The beginning is, as always, the hardest part. What do we start with?
“I was waiting for something extraordinary to happen, but as the years wasted on nothing ever did, unless I caused it …” – Charles Bukowski.
There comes a time when we must decide what and who we are. I remember thinking back when I was a child how much I wanted to be an adult. Somehow, now that I am an adult, I do not feel qualified to be. Worse still. I do not want to be. It feels that adulthood is sucking the life out of me, in a very real way. People call this being unhappy. I call it, being realistic. Who really wants to just go to work every day and then come home to do chores?
We do it because we have to, because no one else will pay our bills. That’s fine. Understanding the rules is part of life. Now, this is not a downer post. I am just trying to get what I really want to talk about. Joy.
It is important that we know what bring us Joy and just add more of that. See, to me, my dad’s daughter after all, has always been a type of “life math”. Add more of what you want, subtract what you don’t like until you are closer to the things you want or who you want to be.
It requires change, and change requires work.
THIS is what I want to talk about. I have found what makes me happy. Creating. Not just making things but the joy of creating new things and sharing them with people who are doing the same. It is not a question of money, or fame. It is to some, don’t get me wrong, just not to me. I am just starting out now and the term “Starving Artist” is a very real thing (hehe). Wait… am I an artist? Maybe. I want art in my life. Does that qualify? What’s an artist, really, (another post, that’s what). (Stay on target, girl. FFS!).
This world we live in is filled with consumers. We fill our houses with things, and work hard to keep them. We fret what we have to lose. Creating makes me feel the opposite of that. I am adding something with a bit of soul to the world. Something that has a part of me and that I put effort and imagination into. At the end of anything I finish, I am better for it. It’s not about perfection. It’s about the joy of creating.
Anyway, I suppose this is what this blog is about. My intent to live a creative life. To Learn, to Grow, to Transform into who I want to be. Whoever that is. A Grand adventure, which is what life should really be.
“Everything I was, I carry with me, everything I will be lies waiting on the road ahead” – Ma Jian
Here we go! My first step.